Praying God’s Word and a Drs. Visit
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It has been a hard week for me.
I’ve been dealing with some physical symptoms for a few months that we just couldn’t nail down with a precise cause.
My dad had colon cancer so the dreaded over 50 colonoscopy was part of the discovery process. Glad to say I’m perfectly clean. (All you over 50 readers can say an “amen” to what that involved!)
Then there was an investigation into some female “issues” and an outpatient procedure this week to remove two polyps from my uterus. This meant a couple of days waiting on tissue samples that were benign, thank you Lord!
But those days of waiting and general exhaustion this week knocked me out flat. I was not expecting that.
You see, I’ve been in a season of new adventures and possibilities. A time of reaping blessings from years of pouring into my family.
I did not like one little itty bit not being able to physically “do” all those things on my list.
True confession. I am a doer. The idea of resting and just “being” is so foreign to me. Somewhere in me is the belief that I have more value when I can see my list all checked off and completed.
I was aptly name after the biblical Martha, rushing around making sure everything is done to validate that never ending to do list.
This week the possibility of one day losing my health nagged at me, flushing my security and opening up old wounds.
You don’t lose your beautiful sister at age 53 from a heart attack without fearing for yourself and those you love, holding on tighter than God intended.
October 2 is the 14th anniversary of her death. Moments filled with personal pain and loss stab at the foundation of all I believe to be true.
I am familiar with grief. It is a lonely, unsettling path to walk.
You don’t lose your precious mom to nursing home neglect without experiencing overwhelming loss.
Somewhere this week fear and anxiety became my companion, and I failed to grasp the hand of the One who has never left my side.
Over the years I’ve kept prayer cards for my family. Simple 4×6 index cards with the scriptures I was praying over their lives.
Verses on guarding their hearts, watching their tongues, overcoming fear.
These cards are a reminder of where we’ve been, the trials we’ve walked through and survived.
This week has taken back to those years of unknowns, where putting one foot in front of the other took a heroic effort of strength and surrender.
Somewhere along the way I forgot about the power of these cards.
The strength of God’s word breathed over anxiety and fear.
Today I made new cards for my family and myself. Scriptures to remind me that I’m not alone.
No matter where my life’s journey takes me, I know I am not alone.
Hun, I can empathize with you as I have suffered some personal losses that were tragic and i am still trying to recover from them. This week I am so physically weak and fatigued that I have not been able to get off the loveseat. one minute they are telling me I have Congestive Heart Failure and the ER doctor told me I had Inappropriate Sinus Tachycardia. As of yet the Cardiologist is not treating me and I am getting worse by the day. That I also have Grade 1 Left Ventricular Diastolic Dysfunction. For all I know I could very well have both conditions on top of already having Ankylosing Spondylitis and Fibromyalgia.
Not that I am trying make your problems seem less. I just wanted to give a bit of my history.
I understand the “Valley of the Shadow”….. So Just remember that God is with you and you have friends that care (((hugz))) I am praying for you .
I’m so sorry for your physical pain and losses, Karen. I pray you will receive help from the doctors that will be both effective and encouraging. Thank you for sharing your heart with me.
I feel where you are at. Loss is a hard part of life that the Lord sends to us. We become stronger through the struggles and tears. You are where I have been. I had 4 of those surgeries before the age of 30.
Cancer has taken too many of my loved ones, Mom, aunt..and close friends. Whatever the Lord send my way he is there to old me, even when it is hard. You will be good. He is using you as a special messenger. And his message is not finished. Take care & rest as he wants you to..
Barbara Ann
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I’m so sorry, Barbara Ann, that you have also experienced the loss of those you love. Grief is not a friend that one welcomes but a way to see out of the darkest days. Blessings!
Prayers for a peaceful day. Give your worries to Jesus! Blessings, Prayers, and Hugs!
Thank you for the prayers, Kayre!
Praying for your quick recovery and sending well wishes. Thank you for sending the CD and I’m sorry for all the confusion. Love the index card idea I’m going to try it.
I’m so glad you got the CD, Diana, and hope you will enjoy listening to it in the days to come!
Sending prayers your way that very soon the doctors can determine what your health issues are, and even more importantly, that you can quickly recover and get back to your healthy self. I have enjoyed your blogs for a few years now and on many occasions, without your knowing it, you have brought me encouragement when I needed it. Hopefully now we can all help you by doing the same. God is definitely in your corner.
Thank you so much, Jane. I am thankful that my words have been an encouragement to you and I’m grateful to have you as a faithful reader!
I didn’t know you were having health issues – I’m so sorry. If you ever need anything, ever, let me know. Thinking about you, friend. Be well.
Hey, Karen. Thanks so much for the encouragement. I would love it if we lived closer and could just hang out! That would definitely make me feel better!
I’m so sorry you are dealing with some heavy stuff right now. I love the index card idea. We need to pull strength wherever we can get it! Praying for you!
Hi, Brandy. The scripture cards have certainly carried me through some difficult times and I hope the idea will encourage you as well!
I’m sorry to hear you’ve been struggling with your health. Praying for you to heal quickly and fully. Love you, my friend.
Thank you, sweet friend. Hopefully it all adds up to a big nothing but I’m ready to feel 100 percent again! Love you!